Leave me Alone!

Sometimes I need what only you can provide: your absence. -- Ashleigh Brilliant

I really really like Fruitcake. However, he's far far away and I can't deal with that. I told him yesterday that he is a perpetuator. He keeps texting me... He is enabling my liking of him. I hate it. What does he expect when he visits!? I'm not spontaneous!!!! If i do anything it'll probably ruin my life... I'd think about it/ be confused for months afterwords.

SIGH.

I compensate by being really mean to him. I keep it funny though so he won't actually hate me. I hate him.

Glee

I love this show. It's so good!

Also. I'm avoiding my phone for like 2 hrs.

hey

I'm an attention whore. Fruitcake gives me attention. i'm LOVED

Bacteriology

I HATE the professor for this class.
I got an A in Microbiology at a pharmacy school. Bacteriology is complete bullshit.

This professor uses the white board and an overhead projector as her presentation tools. Nothing is posted online. This class belongs in the 1980s (so does the prof).

Meanwhile, I should be studying for genetics. <3 it!!!

Train

I said that the only thing I liked about California was the Red Hot Chili Peppers. False. I also love Train.

Things I Meant to Rant About

There are a few things I REALLY need to bitch about for the next couple minutes.

1) Virginia: WTF Virginia!?!?!?! I was FINALLY coming to terms with this state. I have lived here for 10 years. When we moved in, even 10 year old me was like -.-'' we're in the boonies. I hate it. This state was like... the heart of the confederacy.
I've ALWAYS been an East Coast girl. The only thing I like about California is the Red Hot Chili Peppers. I do LOVE that band.

Anyways. Virginia declared this month(?) or last month (i've been meaning to rant about this for a really really long time) "Confederate History Month." SERIOUSLY?! I have NEVER been more embarrassed of where I live.

I live in northern VA - NoVa :D. The high school I went to is like a block away from Georgetown University. There is NO reason our state leadership should be this flawed. Political party doesn't even matter!

FIX YOURSELVES!

2) Rob: I forgot to mention him under "boys of interest" yesterday... Which should already tell you something. Rob is quite a bit older. He has an MD, Pharm.D and is now going to law school cause he decided he wants to be a patent lawyer. He's 26... Yeah. He went to an accelerated program for MD/Pharm. D degrees.
He is really sweet AND hot! At first we were just dating, not even exclusively. That's what he told me. Then he visited me at college a couple times (twice). I met his friends on St. Patrick's Day. He's actually not dating anyone else.

I'm REALLY awkward. I figured out he wasn't dating anyone else in a convo that went something like this, via text.

him: how many guys have you dated?
me: lol. how many girls have you kissed?
him: -.-''
me: hahhah yeah. well. I hope you aren't making out with everything that moves. I don't want the herp.
him: I'm actually hoping you're not hooking up with other people anymore. cause i'm not.

I hung out with him one more time after this. We went to a club with his friends. They are all SO nice and sweet and smart. It gives me hope for the future of Fruitcake and Matt.

He's always really respectful too.

He was asking why he hasn't met my friends when I realized things were getting too serious.
I'm 20. right?!

I stopped replying to texts (using finals as an excuse/ reason) and he texted me something like "when are your finals over? I miss you."
I replied "I don't see how this is going to work. I'm sorry."

It can't really be considered breaking up via text because it wasn't even a relationship! I feel really really bad though. and stupid. He didn't reply. I don't deserve someone like Rob. He's going to end up with a gorgeous I-was-a-model-to-pay-for-med-school/ i-saved-the-world type of woman.

I'll probably end up with Fruitcake. We'll probably be swingers.

MY FLOORMATE JUST LEFT ME!

Sighhhhhhhh. It's the end of the semester. I still have a couple more finals but my roomie is now GONE. Sad. Silly poli-sci majors...

She was my Lost/ Glee buddy. Idk what I'm supposed to do tonight. Talking to people online while watching either/or is so frustrating! I miss her already :(

I have my genetics final on Thursday and Animal Physiology on Wednesday next week. Ecology is either Tues. or Thurs. next week. I should study. But let's face it. I'm SO much better at procrastinating.

It is too hot here. I can't deal with it. It's already 90 degrees. I don't know how I'm going to deal with being here this summer. I'm gonna take a few classes. They start on the 25th or something like that.

That's actually all for now.

I mean. I actually didn't do much today. I woke up at 6AM to study for my Ecology test today. Drove to the test- freaked out for like a good 10 minutes when I looked in the room and saw that my professor wasn't proctoring. I thought I was in the wrong classroom or something. That's what I get for not going to class as often as I should. I think I did well. Then I got back and tried to nap but couldn't.

I watched 2 episodes of Wife Swap. Where do they find these families?!?! One of them was about a Bayou family (like.. legit alligator eating, frogging, literal mudslinging) and a family of ballet dancers. The woman from the Bayou family was SO sexist. She said something about how she was more of a man than the ballet dad. Just because you're not attracted to that kind of guy doesn't mean he's less of a man and just because you're running around after your 3 boys picking up after them doesn't mean that's a woman's place. Crazy woman.
But seriously. who doesn't want a man who can dance?! (minus the leo.. but STILL)

Then I did like 10 problems of the 50 I have to do for Genetics. I love that class.
160 years... how long Genetics has existed
10 years... how long it took to map the human genome
30 minutes... how long it took me to learn how to map, order and tell the distance between 3 linked genes
<3 so. much. potential. in this field.

That's all though. Now I'm sitting here. Chillin. I've had like 3 popsicles today... Need to invest in like 100 more.